sangap malaysia

salam
bismilahirahmanirrahim

hari ni emo.

i can say today is not a good day for me
things came up unexpectedly,living myself dumbfounded and speechless for which it made me thought of Malaysia and im started to miss ALL things there

morning:

-woke up late. cz i slept late last night watching fated to love you drama and tyring hard to memorised the joints and articulations in spinal cord part.
-started opening my precious anatomy book with the atlas and suddenly there's a voice calling up my name asking me to go downstairs for voting (pilihanraya wakil pelajar)

aftrenoon:

-stomach pain.wanted to "pang sai".
-but once i opened the toilet bowl's lid, shocked to see something i shouldnt see in the toilet bowl (gross!)
-calling org-yg-bertangungjwb to clean it but the fella doesnt admit it. so im the 1 who caused it, is it?? darn! im not even "producing" a single shit since 3days ago!
-calling my family.tears shed. cant control it and i screamed.

evening:
-solat asar n recite quran.gave me a little release-feeling.better.
-took a nap

night:
-woke up with my atlas book beside me
-continuing memorising joints of the lower limbs
-felt like wanted to vomit. stress!
-eating cereal at the same time listening to lagu raya in my mp3 player. missing home
-switch on lappy.connecting the internet. updating my blog.

-end.-

conclusion : hard circumstance are something that can't be avoided. i'd gone through some, others waiting in the future. learning to live with strangers and staying apart from beloved family requires a huge portion of patience. and im lack of it.

untitled..

ok,

so when things are not enough or not perfect, it is REALLY NOT enough.

i am not kind of super-positive-thinking-who-positively-says-to-myself-that-everything-will-be-just-fine type.

when i say it is not ok. it is not. how can everything will be fine when it is not?

or it will never be?

if your cooking does not turn really well,

or

you had a silly fight with your boyfriend,

or

you missed your favorite show on TV.

~those at least can be fix.~

i mean, you can just eat whatever you have cooked no matter what it tasted.

or you can always make it up with your boyfriend ESPECIALLY when it was a silly stupid thing. or you can always watch the tv show online or download it somewhere.

it does not matter as long as you stay positive.

bla bla bla.

~whatever those positive thinking stuff that some people tried to poison our mind.~

but when it comes to something that will influence your whole life.

it does REALLY matter.

*sigh*