blessing in disguise

salam
bismilahirahmanirahim

yesterday i phoned my mom.
darn. missing ny family soo much
but then she hung up. maybe accidentally hung up kot
or maybe cdt dah habis kot
watever la
but frankly, i never had such a convo like what we did last night
al this while we just had a so-so convo and nothing like mom-daughter convo lah since she`s busy with her work and staying up late to finish all the paperwork and preparing the watever-briefing text that she has to prepare of

being a loner for about a month has thought me something more than just being an independent person
facing loads of hard circumstances has thought me even more not just to be a strong girl
and sometimes i do regret applying scholarship to russia for reasons that hard to explain (only those who`s staying here will understand)

but hey, isnt that so-called hard circumstance preparing me to be a well-rounded doctor?
people say that life is not a bed of roses
i say that life in moscow is not a like a bed of roses. not even carnation or a bed of bunga tahi ayam
in 6 yrs, maybe i oredi have degree in cooking, moving from house to house,degree in walking n squeezing my body in a crowded places n insyallah in medicine oso
having difficulties here brings me more closer to my family
at once i thought that those who are staying in hostel have a gap with their family but im wrong.
staying here draw me closer to my mom, dad n sis
with so many things going on, i had loads of story to tell them
compared to my previous years which i oni dedicated myself to my mp3 and laptop in my bedroom (its kinda like isolating myself there and know nothing about the outside world)

so thank god i was destined to be a moscow-temporary-citizen
for which it thought me to be a more matured girl
its ok if i`ll have to face another 6yrs of hard days here everyday cz i have a story to tell my family then
~then my mom n dad will start giving tazkirah like dont do this, dont do that, bla-bla-bla~


orang cakap, bila allah tarik sesuatu, dia akan bagi sesuatu yg lebih berharga dari barang yang kita hilang tu.
jadi apepun yang saya hilang kat sini (hanya saya je tahu barang apa), insyallah saya dapat yang lagi best kan??

*p/s- snow started to fall down oredi. soooo cold here!!